"I Was Gackt's Sex Victim!"

[Akino-san]

Нашла на ЖЖ это… Хм… Честно говоря, у меня эта фигня вызвала два чувства – громкий ржач с одной стороны и маленькую – такую ма-а-алюсенькую надежду в самой-самой глубине сердца – с другой. Не верю однозначно. Хотя… Ну, он мужчина в конце концов или кто, а?

Прибывая в некотором шоке, я потеряла ссылку, а искать снова пока лень. Если найду, потом выложу. Пока вот тот самый ржачный – не, ну честное слово! – текст (так поняла, что эта статья была напечатана в каком-то японском и даже китайском журнале):



"I Was Gackt's Sex Victim!"

Not really.



That's just the title of the article. Gotcha! ~_^



Here's the translation I did together with three of my Japanese friends:







"I Was Gackt's Sex Victim"



(I skipped past the first page cuz it's just a bunch of backstory that we already know about Gackt: riding horses (and probably fangirls) at the Tokyo Dome live, starring in the upcoming drama, being in Malice Mizer, etc., etc.)



So, for the good stuff:



Pull quote: "Don't you want to do me?"



The first woman, Reiko-san (age 26, currently unemployed, lives in Tokyo), sent an email with a picture of herself to Gackt. She quickly recieved a reply.



At first, we just had ordinary conversations, like "O-tsukaresama..." etc., very polite, but as we continued to exchange mails, the feeling became more intimate. "I want to give you a massage" I said to him. "Please do (if that's ok)," he sent back. After that the relationship became more like two lovers exchanging messages.



She thought it was just some kind of "fanservice", but as they continued to mail each other, the questions became more and more private:



"How old are you?", "Where do you live?", "What do you do?", "Do you have a boyfriend?" etc., he asked. Then he asked for another picture of me. When he saw it, he advides me to change my looks (style), so I followed his advice and got my hair cut and sent another picture. "I like the way you look now." (lit. = "Looking at your picture relaxes/comforts me.") Please send me more pictures." (implying "without clothes", I think.)



I felt that he was teasing me, but it was ok, because it was Gackt-san.



He gave her his ketai (cell phone) number and they began to have real conversations over the phone.



It was like a dream. But he wasn't very talkative, only giving short answers like, "Sou..." ("Mmm hmm." "Yeah." etc.) I felt that I had already crossed the bridge between fans and artists, but it was moving too fast.



In only a few months they had exchanged emails and talked over the phone; over time Gackt's attitude gradually changed.



The feeling of the conversations changed from "asking" for things to "ordering" me to do things. Suddenly he asked, "Don't you want to sleep with me? If you have no one to sleep with then I'll sleep with you."



Reiko-san struggled with her feelings.



I liked him, but I couldn't believe him. Soon after he changed his phone number and the relationship ended.



If her confession is true, we can see clearly that Gackt had every intention of sleeping with her. Fortunately, or unfortunately, Gackt failed to seduce her.



Second pull quote: "After sex, he asked 'How much?'"



On the other hand, there is a woman, Shizuka-san (age 28, office lady, lives in Osaka), who met Gackt and slept with him. She looks like the famous actress Matsushima Nanako. She spoke only under condition of anonymity.



We also exchanged emails. After 3 months I went to Tokyo to meet a friend, and I sent him an email telling him I was in town. He said "Let's meet." He suggested meeting at the Shibuya City Hotel around 2 or 3am.



When he came, he had on no make-up, but wore sunglasses and leather pants. I was surprised that he wasn't in disguise. He came in and said "O-tsukare," then went over to the in-room refridgerator and asked if he could have some juice. It was our first time to meet, but he didn't even say "hajimemashite." (Basically, he didn't first introduce himself, even though we all know who he is, it's still extremely rude.)



Throughout the night, he didn't speak much at all, only answering my questions with short answers. he was a man of few words. His way of speaking was like an "S" ("sado" or "master" in an S&M relationship). I couldn't figure out what he wanted, so I asked, "What do you want to do?"



For two hours he held her and they slept together before having a shower. (She implies that he didn't shower before sex and that she thought that was weird / rude.)



He didn't take any actions himself, as if he were waiting to be served. I felt that he held himself as "Ore-sama" ("Honorable Me", like a king, to give you an example, when my little kids do something they're overtly proud of they strut around with their hands on their hips, chests out, and call themselves "Ore-sama", like "I'm so fucking great! Bow before me!"), and acted like he wanted me to serve him.



He was only a little larger than average 'down there'... And he only got it up once all night. He wasn't very persistent, but as it was late, I figured he was tired so we went to sleep. He let me use his arm as a pillow all night. He was very brusque, but also gentle. It was like a dream.



When he got up to leave the hotel in the morning, he asked "How much?"



"Huh?" I responded, shocked. Then I realized he meant 'How much for the hotel?' I was disillusioned; I couldn't just tell him "give me 17,000 yen," that's rude. He shouldn't have asked, he should have just left and paid for himself.



After going back to Osaka she tried to contact him, but his attitude had changed:



He became distant. Until then I'd gotten emails from him as soon as I sent them, but after that night, I never got a response. I tried to call him again and again, but he got angry and told me the reason he didn't want to talk to me anymore, "You didn't please me. You should take a look at yourself and figure out why."



Until then I loved him and believed in him very much. Now I don't understand him at all.

I wanted to know more about him, so I surfed the Net and found sites where other women shared similar stories about meeting him and being seduced by him.



Third pull quote: "His Previous Girlfriend Is A 'Kakekomi Dera'" ("Kakekomi Dera" was a temple that wives and lovers of abusive men could run away to to find sanctuary from domestic violence in ancient times. So the feeling is that many of these women who were used by Gackt could go to her to find comfort because she was one of the few who spoke out against him in the past. Apparently this was a big scandal a long time ago, back in his Mizer - early solo days, because this ex-girlfriend of his is also a famous singer.)



At the same time Gackt publicized his email address (he did this on the Dears website, in his personal diary), he talked about his relationship ideals in "Junon", May issue of 2005:



"Email makes it easy to confess your love to someone. The easier it is to confess, the less meaning the word 'love' has. When you like someone, you sleep with them. Now there is a tendency to sleep around too much. Most people don't have the proper attitude for a 'relationship' so it's easier for them just to have sex. It doesn't matter how many times you've had sex. Men like to seduce women like it's a kind of 'game'. I used to be one of them. Men who consider 'love' only a 'game' are immature. Now, I understand that."



The fans who don't know the real Gackt believe his words, and they don't believe the rumors. They make denials, such as "Gackt-sama would never do such dirty things," but those women, like Shizuka-san, who have met him for real, argue otherwise. They say he has two faces. There is much argument among fans.



Reiko-san said, "All of his fans doubt him, and so they exchange information." The women who have had a relationship with Gackt all turn to one woman, Yuuko-san (age 30), a singer who was previously involved with Gackt. She bacame their confidant.



So, we contacted Yuuko-san and asked her about whether she thought the stories true or not.

At first, she hesitated, fearing for her privacy, but then she came forward and said it was true about him having two sides.



Yuuko-san said, "The girls who exchange email with Gacktfeel he is a God because of his incredible charisma. They are so excited because it's like a dream, but once they establish a relationship, Gackt treats them coldly and rudely, then yells at them for being persistent. It makes the girls feel very uneasy / insecure. (lit. = "nervous"). He is very much an 'S' ("master") and treats girls like slaves."



We then contacted Gackt's management office and inquired about his easy relationship with fans. They said, "When Gackt asks for pictures, he means the ones that were taken together with him on the overseas fan club tours." After checking with Gackt, they also added, "Gackt says he has never had a relationship with a fan."



Nobody knows if it's true or not, but one thing is sure -- his anger is like Uesugi Kenshin's fire.